It has been said that we cannot love someone else, unless we first learn to love ourselves. This concept eluded me for many years as I was under the distinct impression that self love was selfish, the way to self destruction which shows a lack of consideration. I was taught that to give time, attention and love to others was the way things should be done therefore I put everyone’s needs above my own in an attempt to feel whole.
Embrace: An act of accepting something willingly, to take or clasp in the arms and press to the bosom.
“There is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost.” Martha Graham
Little did I realise that this very act would be my Achilles heel. I was known as a people pleaser, and quite well liked and recognised as a person who would go out of their way to assist. A dependable friend and colleague – the rock they needed. But who was I really? I had taken others truths as my own; I had no direction as I was always showing others the way. When asked what was it that I wanted out of life I had no concrete answer that felt truthful to me. I stole ideas from those around me and used them to define myself. I owned their goals; I owned the labels they used to describe me. However I was pretty lost and in a deep abyss – a non-entity. I could use all sorts of excuses to explain the way I was: upbringing, teaching, bad childhood experiences, bad relationships...yes valid as they are, they were my crutch, my reasons to feel like I needed to do more in order to feel more worthy. The only way to describe myself was an empty vessel, giving to others what I didn’t have. This was a catch 22 situation and to say the least it was definitely not serving me well in my walk through life.
While in a deep valley of despair, I realised that I had to acknowledge my contribution to this world if I were to ever grow and become more than I thought I was. It was as if the clouds moved away from the sun and I could finally see clearly when the realisation set in. I decided to travel a path to find out what made me motivated, inspired and energised. I had to start loving every aspect of ME and only me. May I say, a few bitter pills had to be swallowed - proverbially speaking, when I had to deal with the not-so-nice side of myself and, not getting too ahead of myself and egotistically riding on the positive aspects. But there is something wonderful about finding yourself at last. I found out that life was not about others, it was about ME being genuine and unadulterated with myself so that I can unconditionally love and accept another. It was about learning to love myself enough so that I could learn how to love and give love to someone - to give from a jar that was full not from an emptiness I needed others to fill.
I know that many of you have been and perhaps are still in the same situation I was: where your self-worth is left in the hands of someone else. Not to make light of the positive effects we derive from gratefulness, appreciation and acknowledgement as these are the motivations you so often need to feel accepted and loved. However you must realise just how important YOU are. That you DO matter, you DO count and there is nobody on this earth that can fulfil your role. Nobody can be YOU better than you yourself. And you owe it to yourself and those around you to be the best YOU you can be. The mere fact that you are alive is reason to believe that YOU are a cause for celebration! How about starting today with a new lease on life? Embrace yourself, love and cherish yourself. Find what moves you, discover the little nuances that make you unique and build from there. Break free of the boundaries of negative self talk by seeing a new way ahead.
This week I would like to challenge you to stop people pleasing for just a few weeks so that you can give with a heart full of love and worthiness and see what the reaction will be. I guarantee that your new found confidence will radiate to everyone that comes into contact with you. Best of all you might start loving and enjoying life – and will that be a bad thing? I think you owe it to yourself to try, try and try again – and as the cliché goes –YOU ARE WORTH IT
The summer hovers just in front of us which should be a reminder that there is always something beautiful, some awakening that is about to take place that could change our lives for the better. The season is painting a new picture, if you take the time to look. Too many of us have convinced ourselves that to be settled and contained is the way life should be.
“Ask yourself whether the dream of heaven and greatness should be waiting for us in our graves – or whether it should be ours here and now and on this earth.” Ayn Rand
There so many reasons why we should start right away with the business of having fun but we find so many excuses why we shouldn’t. My circle of friends has sadly been reduced by death of late, which has prompted this Thought today. The question I ask myself is whether I’m loving my life or am I plodding mundanely day in day out?
There are many who prefer consistency, happy to have things stay the same. When circumstances throw them off kilter they start to panic and can only gain equilibrium once their upset life stabilises again. Granted, there is a sense of serenity to be had when they know that certain things happen at a certain time and that fact cannot be negated. But if you find that all you have is routine, can you say for certain that you are doing justice to your life on earth?
I understand that some of you would like to do more but perhaps finances do not allow. Maybe you have small children or elderly parents and don’t feel that you have the freedom or time. Careers can be so demanding that you do not have the energy to get out and immerse yourself in fun. Your body may not be as able as you would like –too old, too fat, too thin or too disabled.
Notwithstanding responsibility or limitations, life offers us a canvas and we need to use all the colours in our palette to paint the best picture we can. What if I tell you that all your arguments of why you cannot do more to find fun in your life, are invalid? What if I told you that your cocoon you think is so safe is paper thin? What if I remind you that only your thoughts limit your dreams to that which you know? What if I suggest that even though you may feel limited, your fears limit you the most? Am I asking you to be radical and impulsive? If I were, would that be a bad thing? Are you limiting your experience of this wonderful life by allowing others to choose your colours and paint brushes?
Time is passing us all by, minute by minute and yet we all think we have a tomorrow that’s guaranteed to happen. This is an illusion.. a nice thought to have and plan for. So are we going to wait for tomorrow to come so we can live? Impromptu picnics with the family do not cost a fortune. A spontaneous hike up your nearest hill to watch the sun rise or set wont upset your apple cart. Driving to the coast just to have a swim in the sea with friends cannot be bad. Playing wheelchair rugby might just be the passion you never thought you had. Snorkelling may open up a whole world you never imagined. How will you know if you never try? How will you try if you never dreamed a dream bigger than you allow.
Come on people, at the end of your life wouldn’t you love to say that you have ventured beyond what you thought was possible? Don’t save your dreams, happiness or greatness for another day. Decide today to pursue that which moves you to paint, to create a new picture. Let us say as we rest our heads on our pillows that today was a day filled with brilliant vibrant colour!